| HORRAY!! |
[Nov. 23rd, 2009|12:36 am] |
I am a college graduate.
No really, I finally am.
After 6 years in college, out of high school since 2003, I am probably the last of my high school buddies to graduate. And it feels AMAZING.
And while I will be working hard at my job (Red Lobster), I will be working even HARDER looking for my real job. Not quite sure what that is just yet, but advertising, children's books, gift cards, who knows.
This week is Thanksgiving and I am sad to announce I will not be returning home. I will be spending my first Thanksgiving alone here in the Savvy while Nick and Mike head home to have real Thanksgivings with their families and eat awesome food. Abbey, Riley and I will enjoy each other's company. That's about it.
I will try and do some work over the week and post it up online.
Just wanted to say HIIIII WORLD WIDE WEB!! I am Mo, and this is my blog (kinda).
♥ Mo.
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| separation anxiety |
[Jun. 21st, 2008|10:32 pm] |
you know... this wasnt my idea. to separate for the summer.
im just gonna put that out there.
MY idea was to get a house and a job, and LIVE TOGETHER in Savannah for the summer. But NOOOOO, Nick wants to be mister nice guy and move back- because itll be cheaper.
pff.
so here we are. two weeks into summer and im already counting the days until the end of July, when I see him for a week house searching in Savannah. we dont have roommates yet, so that sucks... but we have each other. 4 weeks and counting... pretty pathetic. but oh well! being without him is unlike anything ive felt before. i knew it was going to be hard, but not like this. after being with someone constantly since the day you meet one another...being by yourself is really really hard. i miss him always being there for me. im in love with him.. i need him.
the summer so far has been fun, though. I hang out with Megan at least once a day, and we usually lay out of play wii. last night, somehow, i got TANKED at her place. i guess i fell asleep in the car (wanting to drive home), and i passed out on the couch with Abbey. woke up to her taking up ALL the room next to me. I thought i was with Nicki which made me even MORE sad. so today was a miserable day for me... hung over all bloody day. im still feeling it a little. i think im going to stay in for tonight.
job search 2008 SUCKS. i cant find ANYTHING.... nothing. no one is hiring- nowhere i wanna work anyway. i need to be making money this summer... but right now, any kind of money is money. anyone know of a place thats hiring?
other than that i dont have any news to update you people on. Nick gave me a ring before we left Savannah. it's really special, and its beautiful!! i cant wait until he asks me to marry him.... *sigh*
im gonna go turn on another pathetic disney movie.
if you know where i can find two roommates and a job,
let me know. |
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| summer = depression |
[Jun. 11th, 2008|09:01 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Tampa | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Gavin Degraw- Medicate the Kids | ] |
hola.
here i am. 9:02pm on Wednesday night. Jobless, in Florida. I'm not at Megans, I'm at home. chillin on the computer... waiting for Nick to get back online from saying goodnight to his dad.
I did a puzzle for God's sake.
Anyway... the summer is here. And I can't seem to get a hold of Tony at the damn OG. I'm getting rather sick of trying to track him down. So tomorrow, I plan on getting a bunch of applications by covering my rapidly growing bazoomas and looking pretty NATURALLY. Ah what is natural anymore anyway? and after I've found my fill, I'll head to OG and see what they have to say.
I miss Nick. I knew it was going to be bad, so I just forgot about it. I never thought about it. I honeslty thought that hanging out with Megan would take away most of the pain. But I was really wrong. I really miss Nicki. It's hard to describe. We spend every minute of every day together... so being apart doesn't even feel right. This blows. I can't wait to be back in his arms again.
Megans having a party tonight for Eli's birthday.. and I really wanna go. I just haven't been home at all. and Nick gets mad at me when i disappear on him. |
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| i miss hanson.. |
[May. 18th, 2008|02:09 pm] |
yeah. cant help it.
i came across an old video on youtube last night.... the boys on snick, 'cooking' in the kitchen, ie, making a HUGE mess. watching Taylor trying to control Zac while Ike is on and off camera since no one is listening to him...
God.... theyre insane. and i miss them.
two more weeks of school. thats it. im stoked but at the same time i still dont have a summer job. and ill be saying goodbye to nick for three months. it'll be hard but i know we can do it in the long run.
i wish Hanson would go back on tour.... i wish i wasnt so busy with school. then again, im glad ive put them aside so i can finally graduate and do something with my life.
sigh..
that is all. |
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| college |
[Apr. 1st, 2008|03:48 pm] |
im considering dropping out of the savannah college of art and design.
its not worth the money we're scrapping together.
not to mention its too stressful. i dont have enough time for a job if i want to be a successful student.
i have 15$ to my name until i hear from my father about giving my mother a check so she can deposit it. which means i wouldnt get the money until tomorrow.. maybe the next day. and i have no food. which means i wont eat until i get money.
its not like im out buying shit for myself. i cant even afford food.
the job rate once you graduate is supposed to be high. can they then explain to me how everyone i know who graduated is still struggling to find one?
why pay so much if it will get me nothing?
im not promised a job once i graduate.. by anyone.
the fact that my parents are divorced and are paying for two of their three children to go to school as well as other expenses, and tell me we're having trouble affording it... is enough of a reason to call it quits. i would much rather just give up and go home. or go to a state school.
i hate money. |
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| Target Extravaganza |
[Dec. 16th, 2007|03:25 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | savannah ga | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | hungover | ] |
| [ | music |
| | south park | ] |
Target is always a good time, but not when you dont have money. I explain the 98% rule to April and we play the game briefly before entering the store. while walking around we pick up bras. i decide to try getting one a cup size smaller, only because im tired of looking like a stay-at-home mom with my huge 34C bra. it looked good. which only reconfirms my notion. after picking up some nice martini glasses and dvds we leave and decide Broughton street hasnt seen our loud asses in awhile. so we start from the beginning of broughton and cruise blaring Family Force 5's Luv Addict. i officially no longer care if anyone thinks im insane while we roll down the street, screaming and doing motions and yelling lyrics out the window at random people who laugh in return. april is putting on south park and all i can think about it what Nick is up to. is he having a good time? is he thinking about me? does he miss me like i miss him? however while jamming in the car with april, we happened to be laughing about something together and i realized just how good this time away from Nick will be for us. and by us, i mean Apis. ive missed it just being the two of us. |
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| its that time again ! |
[Sep. 24th, 2007|10:20 pm] |
i am once again selling artwork. my camera is broken, and i only have these three images.
but if you know my work, and would like to see individual pictures, i can make that happens.
<333 DO comment!
ps... scad is great. |
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| I'm trying it.. |
[Jun. 25th, 2007|09:43 am] |
if you click this box.. Hanson could write a song about ME.
i may not win.. but why not try??
Sarah Brodsky the other day said "I would click it everyday"
So here it is. Just click it.. and I have a chance at winning.
I have til Sept 12th to have every single person on this planet click that box.
yeah... im still strange.
<3
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| funny shit i say |
[May. 7th, 2007|11:58 pm] |
when i grow up i wanna be a munchkin. you know, a dwarf.
theyre so tiny! like stuffed animals to hug!
kitties or titties?
TITTIES.
im a titties kinda girl. kinda person.
how many chinks does it take to screw in a lightbulb? SIX PEOPLE. hahaha. no really.
ive seen the harry potters. not all of them though.
oh really? which ones have you seen?
the one where he goes to school.
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so anyway..
conversations Sarah and I have. theyre fun. she ate AN ENTIRE pint of ben and jerrys aloneskie. i had like, one bite. im trying to keep my girlish figure. but ive gained weight. i know it lol. |
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| weird |
[Apr. 10th, 2007|03:58 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  soo tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Hanson stuff | ] |
so whenever i bring up my situation with Andrew to my mother, all she can reply with is "your grades are so important.." blah blah.
thanks mom. glad all you can think about are my grades when i need advice.
things are moving along with him. weve been talking a lot this past week and its nice. however im not jumping to ANY kinds of conclusions. he still hasnt dated anyone (although he did get a girls number. and she did tell him she didnt want to go on a date, that she just got out of a longterm relationship lol). i kinda feel bad for him at times, but others i just want things to be normal again. at the same time, i know we cant get back together until he knows for sure. which kinda means im left hanging on the wall by the back of my neck.
im really enjoying my time with my girlfriends. sarah tobi and ashley have done nothing but be there for me every step of the way and i truly value their friendship. tobs and i are actually living together right now and are getting an apartment/house this summer for next year!! were both really stoked. so even if things with Andrew and i continue to be rocky, i have my friends. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 13th, 2007|07:19 pm] |
im supposed to be happy being single.
right?
that's what people do.
they get excited, the go out there, and they look.
not happening.
i guess Savannah is just a crappy breading ground for guys.
ah well.
this weekend hopefully will help out a lot.
St Pattys in Savannah.
all the water runs green!!
and then im going home for the rest of my break.
Tampa, look out!
SHE'S SINGLE AGAIN!!
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and miserable.
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| my work so far.. |
[Dec. 16th, 2006|03:08 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blegh | ] |
| [ | music |
| | shuffle | ] |
for Lindsay
for Sean
im still very much interested in doing others, if anyone is interested.
♥ m.
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| artwork |
[Dec. 9th, 2006|01:04 pm] |
hi everybody!!
ok this is my idea for this Christmas:
I'm doing commission work again!
I'll post previous works that I've done. I do cartoony pieces of people in background of their choice, animals, clothing, anything you name it. I do them on 18x24 pieces of newsprint in pastel.
They run $50-$70 depending on what you want in the piece.. in other words, the more complicated and time-consuming, the more its going to cost you.
I'm DYING to do some.. just for YOU!! so please, let me know if you're interested. I ask for pictures so i know what to do for hair and face features.
here are some past works..
me and andrew in the moon
( text )
ok well let me know if you're into this!!
like i said,
i'm ready to make a piece just for YOU!
♥ m.
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 7th, 2006|02:19 pm] |
i miss this.
for sure!! family next week. hopefully ill make it out to atleast one.
maria, you with me?
♥ m.
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| lookin lookin |
[Jul. 26th, 2006|01:02 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | hanson | ] |
lookin fo a roommate.
well.. so this is what im thinking.. i want to live in a dorm because i want that whole living on campus/college experience i never got. but i also know ill be living with a bunch of kiddies.. 18 year olds. i dont think that sounds like fun.
ah, and for those of you who dont know, i got accepted into SCAD (savannah college of art and design) for this fall semster. yayyy!! im going tomorrow to vist the campus and dorms, ect @ 2pm.
if you go there.. read this.. and know im coming?? YOU SHOULD TRY AND SEE ME lol. kimbo, im thinkin you should meet me somewhere to atleast say HELLO!! and perhaps we'll come visit your abode.
kisses!! xoxo
♥ m.
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| hanson secrets.. |
[Jun. 20th, 2006|02:23 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cold | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Hanson | ] |
just sitting here..
waiting for hanson secrets..
because i am obsessed.
and im also on hansonnet so its not so bad. listening to hanson, on hansonnet.. chatting about hanson.. oh yeah and calling the hotline 29475 times just b/c its a, taylor talking and b, the machine isnt full yet.
i love me.
ps, this was the best day ever:
( Hanson 2003 )
that is all. have a great day!
♥ m.
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| it's only you.. |
[Apr. 26th, 2006|09:23 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  in loves | ] |
| [ | music |
| | BSB!! | ] |
Baby it's the way you make me
Kinda get me go crazy
Never wanna stop
It's gotta be you (uh huh, uh huh)
I can't control it anymore
I've never felt like this before
Mmm, you really make me lose my head
My hungry heart must be fed (uh huh, uh huh)
Baby it's the way you make me
Kinda get me go crazy
Never wanna stop
It's gotta be you (uh huh, uh huh)
All the way
It's gotta be you (uh huh, uh huh)
Everyday
I promise you I will be true, yeah
It's only you
Now I know why I was born
You feel my feelings one by one
Can't see the world I'm walking through
'Cause baby I see only you, oh yeah
Baby it's the way you make me
Kinda get me go crazy
Never wanna stop
Baby it's the way you make me
Kinda get me go crazy
Never wanna stop
And you know
I can't see the world I'm walking through
'Cause of you, yeah...
It's gotta be you, all the way
All that I ever wanted
It's gotta be you, I will be true, yeah
It's only you
♥
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 19th, 2006|01:21 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Go | ] |
sometimes you wonder.. if the past 2 years of your life were worth anything. if it was just one big joke. waste of time. one big lie. but it couldnt have been. it shouldnt be. it wasnt.
anger is a funny thing.
jealousy is a funny thing.
and friendship is a funny thing.
right now i dont know where i stand.
i currently lead two lives.
im a best friend
with a stunt double ex girlfriend.
i give advice, run around
be happy, smiles, have laughs and good times..
then i blink twice and start crying
the reality of everything that happened.
the pain of knowing..
fear of whats next
if i leave him alone..
react and disapear
what will become of him?
having to be two people at once is very stressful. i could drop it and stop. but he means too much to me. and i just cant. then again.. it appears that i didnt meant very much to him. or atleast as much as i was fooled to thinking he did. tonights drama had to have been the worst episode yet.
however im talking to someone right now who is reminding me that all i need is God. He's the one who would die for me.. be there for me. im worth it to him. it shouldnt matter who else im worth it to, or what im worth.
.. although one day, when im ready, it would be nice to feel worth it to someone. i want to be someones whole world.
♥ m.
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